Exam stress, and other things that annoy me

It's that time of year again, no, not that time, the other one... Yes, exams are here! Or they will be in a weeks time. And-I-am-stressed. Everyone's probably going "Wow, that's a big revelation there..." and rolling their eyes all over the place, but it's true... I don't think I've ever really felt the pinch, like really really felt the pinch of an exam until Uni, and it's not because the modules are tougher, although that does play a part, but rather because as CY put it, Uni is a terribly imbalanced playing field. If you haven't noticed yet, perhaps I can fill you in on a few details...

Personally I believe that Uni is a place where hypocrites and geniuses thrive, and the reason I say that is firstly because geniuses (in my course anyway) don't really have to associate with anyone to do well, and in that sense having a low EQ (stereotypically speaking) doesn't matter. Now hypocrites are an interesting subject... I can't believe for a minute, that the professors don't notice a single thing. I think they just choose to ignore it and continue to let the students get away with whatever they can. And this 'it' I'm referring to, is the complete, and utter, total lack of moral values. Minor things last year like looking at questions, and even beginning an exam before they asked us to start, and continuing after time's ended were just the tip of the iceberg. Only now, now do I realise the true extent of the problem. People directly plagiarising work from their seniors, copying during tests, not only from notes, but each other, and doing it openly when the prof. is merely collecting scripts from the other side of the class. And it's not one person that's doing the copying, but rather the central person in a row of 3, pushing his paper slightly forward on the desk, while the other 2 on either side lean towards the center and copy off his script. Like excuse me? Don't you have the slightest shred of decency in not doing things like that? I shall not point fingers, but it's a particular group of people who do such things. I mean, if that's the type of foreign talent our government wants to attract... (oops, think I said too much) Had separate discussions with two friends about this, and other things on the side... I've been wondering if we've been too sheltered in secondary school and jc that we don't notice such things, but more importantly, is this what life is going to be like? Who's to talk about moral values if such things happen? And I for one certainly do not want to work past my retirement age in such conditions, no matter what the government says.

Another thing I'm beginning to worry about is the fact that my CAP really stinks... No, all you people who think your CAP is bad, it isn't... Don't give me nonsense like "I can't get 2nd class honours" and say your CAP is bad, mine is worse. And I really, really need it to go up, but the more I think about it, and the more I study, the more I feel it's not going anywhere this sem... Sigh, I don't know if I can catch up with the work this sem, but it's totally and truly my fault. Thanks to Daniel and Kenneth for helping me so much with my work, but finals are really up to me, and I need to put in lots more effort than before... Sigh, everything will come to an end in 2 weeks I guess... I can't wait for it to be over... I miss my trombone, I miss the band ppl, I miss going out and not bothering about school work, and my fingers are just itching to play mahjong, while my voice is just itching to *wink*. Guess whoever's supposed to understand that should... And I'm off to bed, tomorrow is the start of a week of intensive, really intensive study. Wish me luck, and I'll do the same. (Cos I need all the help I can get)

Hope things change when exams end, I really can't take being ignored...